i don't know what to do..

i've been watching house m.d again. another good episode. again, house saves another patient, but my focus isn't really on how they cure the patient, it's the story behind it that's far more interesting.

"human can't control their emotions, but they can control their actions."

this script was spoken by dr. cameron regarding her alledged affair with her ex-husband's best friend (while she was still with her husband obviously. otherwise it wouldn't be called an affair). but she knows that it's wrong and deter herself from doing what she wasn't supposed to do, eventhough she claims that it was true love. in contrast with dr. wilson who repeatedly having an affair, with an excuse that human can't control their emotions.

and there's another case regarding a convicted murderer who're waiting for his death sentence, but still wouldn't deter house from saving him from his disease. it turns out that his glands that produce adrenalin are randomly spraying adrenalin into his bloodstream, causing an uncontrolled anger, which may be the reasons why he became a murderer. i mean, there's a medical reason behind someone being a murderer? isn't that something new to you as well?

and do you know that the maximum days a person could stay awake without any sleep is 11 days. i believe it's statistical rather than medically proven, but it makes the movie The Machinist medically unrelevant, eventhough it's still a great movie.

sigh..i have this this one thing going on all over my head and i don't really know what to do. all the consequences from all the options seems awful. it keeps me awake..

maybe i shouldn't worry. i still got 10 more days to go if i couldn't sleep tonight.

seems like i'm depressed? maybe i am, becauses i can't control my emotions.

haha..now i'm relating myself to a TV series..